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Anna’s Story: Trying to Conceive Miracle #2 Take 1

Reading time: 9 minutes · Updated: Feb 11, 2020 by Anna

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TRIGGER WARNING!  – I talk about trying for a second child while nursing my first child in this post.  If you are trying for your first child and aren’t in an emotional place to read about this, just skip this blog post!

As more people follow this blog and my various social media accounts, I feel the need to come clean about something important in my current fertility journey.

1- My baby is now 21 months old and I have been trying conceive  since I was cleared for marital relations at 6 weeks postpartum.

2- I’m still nursing.

3- I’m not pregnant.

Table of Contents

  • Trying to Conceive a Second Miracla Child after Infertility
  • Multiple Early Miscarriages & Secondary Infertility
  • Trying to Conceive While Breastfeeding
  • Do I have to stop breastfeeding to get pregnant?
      • Staying Positive

Trying to Conceive a Second Miracla Child after Infertility

Somehow, I had convinced myself it would be easy to get pregnant again despite how hard it was with the first. My gynecologists didn’t help.  When I went in for my 6 weeks postpartum visit and she asked me what I was doing for birth control, I looked at her like she was crazy.

High FSH, low AMH, endometriosis, MTHFR single mutation, and a history of recurrent early loss? AND nursing? BIRTH CONTROL?

She gave a knowing look and said something to the effect of, “We see women all the time like you and they come back the next month pregnant!” I smiled and said, “I hope so!”

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At 3 months postpartum I got my period back.  This is very, very early, considering I was nursing on demand and around the clock.  I was excited, thinking this could mean a return to “fertility.” Wrong.

My cycle was (and is) crazy.  It varies from 25 to 38 days with seemingly no rhyme or reason.  When trying for my son it was almost always a perfect 28 days and I always had very obvious ovulation symptoms right around days 13-15 (ovarian pain, egg-white cervical mucous, heightened sex drive).  So we just had sex like rabbits knowing we would get the right day, and didn’t worry about the rest.

But now . . . well, some months I have ovulation symptoms and some months I don’t.  Yes, I could temp to know exactly what is happening, but charting my basal body temperature made me a crazy lady when trying for our first.  I’m just not signing up for that kind of anxiety in my life.

So, while I continue to breastfeed I’m stuck with wackadoodle cycles when I may or may not be ovulating.

Multiple Early Miscarriages & Secondary Infertility

The last 18 months haven’t been completely without outcomes however.  Last spring I had three chemical pregnancies in a row followed by one early miscarriage at just past 5 weeks.  It was a rough 4 months!

I visited some of my healers.

My ob-gyn said what I already knew- it’s hard to know if the early losses were related to my old fertility challenges, or if they were related to low progesterone from nursing, or a short luteal cycle, etc.

My RE (fertility doctor) said, “You got pregnant once, you’ll probably get pregnant again.  But maybe not successfully while nursing.  Here’s a prescription for progesterone suppositories in case you get pregnant again.”

My acupuncturist said, “Well, I can stick needles in you, but you can’t have any herbs until you stop nursing.  Take your time nursing, you’ll be fine getting pregnant when your body is ready.”  She also said, when I mentioned I barely had time to eat regular meals and drink enough water while chasing after a young toddler, “You don’t have time to eat, but you have time for another baby?”  Touché madam.

Trying to Conceive While Breastfeeding

I hadn’t really been desperate to get pregnant until those four early miscarriages in a row.  Then, after those losses, I was suddenly desperate.  I decided to take matters into my own hand.  We already had eliminated toxins from our house, and ate mostly clean, so I thought it wouldn’t be a big lift to do ALL THE THINGS again.

I was wrong! For 3 months I managed to mostly stick to the diet, but I was exhausted, nauseous and lightheaded pretty much all the time.  I always thought I was pregnant, but I never was.  I finally went into my regular doctor to get my thyroid, iron, and other levels checked.

The doctor kindly said, “Did you say you are breastfeeding your toddler? Have you started any weird diets?” Bingo.  I wasn’t getting nearly the amount of sheer calories needed to sustain milk production. The doctor suggested adding bananas and bread back into my diet.  I did just that and – BOOM I felt better.

I also wasn’t able to fully commit to the mind-body work.  I would do Circle & Bloom a few times per week, but not every night like the month I conceived my baby.  I couldn’t find time to dream journal as I was always waking up with my little guy and didn’t have the time.  The first month I did the Fertile Heart work (the morning and evening meditations and the body work) a few times per week, but then I slacked.  At night I usually fell asleep nursing my little guy and didn’t have time for evening prayer or gratitude practice.

In the end, it was only a half-hearted attempt that left me hungry.  It wasn’t nourishing- I was dieting, not fully nourishing myself.  It was the wrong approach, and it was the wrong time.

The truth is, with my many fertility-related “conditions,” I will probably never be in balance enough while nursing to sustain a pregnancy.

Do I have to stop breastfeeding to get pregnant?

So, you ask, why haven’t you stopped nursing???

Well, First, I really, really, really like nursing.  It was one of the reasons I was so excited to become a mother, and I dreamed about nursing while trying to conceive, and while pregnant.  I find it relaxing, a good way to connect with my little guy, and I feel like a straight-up fertile momma goddess when I nurse.

Second, it makes parenting really, really easy.  Toddler gets hurt? Nursing makes it better.  Toddler is mad because momma was gone all day?  Let’s nurse and reconnect.  Toddler wakes up at night? 30 seconds on the boob and he’s out again.

Third- my baby was always been small- around the 15the percentile for weight- and I feel like he needs all the calories he can get, especially night-time calories. I know technically this isn’t true, but it FEELS true.

Fourth – it’s good for him!  Research shows that nursing through 2 years of age provides additional immunological and gut protection.  Also, whenever he gets sick, my breastmilk is like a made-to-order healing medicine. We also had a scary hospitalization around Christmas when we couldn’t get any liquids into him other than through nursing and an IV.

Finally, Fifth- I’m scared.  I’m scared that even though I blog about fertility, and I was able to conceive a miracle before, and my doctor and acupuncturist think I can do it again with ALL THE THINGS, I’m scared. What if I can’t get pregnant again? What if this is my only miracle? I want to breastfeed for as long as possible!

Staying Positive

Now, I know that kind of thinking is completely unhelpful. Julia Indichova of Fertile Heart would say this is an Orphan talking, not an Ultimate Mom.

But, I just want to be honest with my readers about what is going on in my head, my heart, and my spirit.  And, I’m working on my attitude.  Of COURSE I will have more children.  Of COURSE our family will grow.  Just, at the right time.

My husband wants three children and he says I can nurse our third until they are four years old for all he cares, but it is time to get serious about miracle number two.

We’ve made a deal for me to start weaning (now) in March 2017.  I think he imagines it will take two weeks, and I’m imagining it will take three months.  As soon as he (my little one, not my husband) is completely weaned, I’m headed to the acupuncturist for those chinese herbs and I will be ready to fully commit to the diet and mind-body routine!

I’m asking my husband to do the diet with me this time, and he’s agreed, bless his heart.

Here is what I’m doing to prepare my body for trying to conceive again while weaning my little one:

A daily fertility smoothie with protein, fats, spirulina, and wheatgrass.

A daily fertility infusion with red raspberry, nettles, and oatstraw.

CoQ10 – 300 mg a day. Read more about CoQ10 for fertility here.

My regular whole-foods prenatal. (Read about my favorite supplements here)

My regular Omega3/DHA pill.

A daily Whole Lemon Drink for Fertility

A daily probiotic. My favorite is Seed.

Almost completely following the Fertility Diet.  No caffeine, no booze, no dairy, no sugars/sweeteners, no white carbs (white wheat products, white rice, white pasta), no trans-fats, no soy, limited fruits, etc. Plenty of leafy greens, proteins, and healthy fats.

After I am done weaning I will cut back on the meat a bit (meat is bad for endometriosis, even though it is good for your gut, and protein intake), and I think I will go gluten free, even though I didn’t with miracle #1.  For now though, I will continue to eat plenty of whole grains lest I become dizzy and tired all the time again.

I’m not thrilled to be cutting out white rice and bananas, but it is time to start truly nourishing my body and avoiding the things that make it unbalanced.  Let’s do this!!!

Filed Under: Anna's Story Tagged With: count your blessings, fertility life, miscarriage

About Anna

I'm Anna and I beat the odds and got pregnant naturally (twice) after the doctors said it wasn’t possible. I blog about how I did it and encourage my readers to take charge of their fertility journey and get happy, healthy, and pregnant!

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  1. Megan

    March 03, 2017 at 11:31 pm

    Anna, thank you for your willingness to share your story. I am sure it will encourage others on their own journey. I am so sorry about your losses <3

    Breastfeeding while trying to conceive is so tricky. There is such variance in how it impacts each woman. I think you are likely aware, but in my personal and professional experience, I think night time feeds tend to have the greatest impact on hormones. Of course, many women do struggle to conceive (or to maintain pregnancy) until they have fully weaned, but there is something about the body receiving messages during the night that another child is in need of nourishment that impacts our bodies and hormones so strongly.

    Hoping that weaning goes well for you both!

    Reply
    • Anna

      March 06, 2017 at 8:52 am

      Thank you for your comments Megan! You know I’ve known that bit about nighttime weaning since before I gave birth, and yet I can’t seem to bring myself to night wean him. It’s just so easy to nurse him to sleep!! I need to figure out a way to comfort him at night without nursing!!

      Reply
  2. Jessica T.

    March 08, 2017 at 6:12 pm

    Hello Anna,
    Your reasons for not weaning your little guy sound just like mine did. Every one of them.

    I had my son when I was 40 (conceived with no problems after 4 mos trying) and nursed him for 2.5 years. Nursing really shortened my luteal phase, I had low progesterone and I’m told “weak ovulation” as a result plus low thyroid which I am treating. My son is now 4 and I am still TTC #2 at the age of 44 with all that that brings. My acupuncturist explained to me that the body only has so much energy and it was devoting that energy to nourishing my son.
    I finally weaned when I knew I could talk to him about it beforehand and he would understand and then only because I felt it was what was hindering my ability to conceive #2. I talked to him about it a good month before I actually weaned. We both cried the first time I had to remind him there were “no more nursies”, it was very hard for me (harder for me I think than for him because I had already been TTC for a year and feared that would be the last time in my life I’d nurse my child).
    I did conceive 3 months after weaning, but miscarried at 7 weeks, then had a chemical 12 months later on my first Clomid cycle.

    There are days when I feel resentment towards my son for “causing” my secondary infertility because he was so attached to the breast for so long, though mostly I am grateful for that time and for the special bond I know it has created.
    I wish you all the best. Infertility itself is rough and secondary infertility is hard because I have feelings of guilt for wanting more when others have none. Good luck to you.

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  3. Anna

    March 09, 2017 at 5:48 am

    Jessica,

    Thank you for sharing your story. Your fears and your experience resonate with me and give me good food for thought. I’m sure if your son could he would thank you for all the time you nursed him. I agree with the guilt you feel- I feel bad for wanting more when I was granted this perfect miracle and others are trying for their first. Nevertheless, the longing is there.

    I’m starting to talk with him about weaning and he doesn’t like it. Even just talking about it and trying to distract him at times from nursing has led to asking for it more. Sigh. We’ll get there, just not today or tomorrow. Hopefully by his second birthday.

    Thank you again for your story, and I wish you all the baby dust on your efforts for a second child! If you haven’t found your way over to the Fertile Heart community you might want to go for some inspiration! I love Julia’s program and reading the success stories she posts on her website!

    Thank you again for taking the time to share!

    Anna

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  4. Liz

    May 31, 2017 at 11:55 am

    Hello ladies, I know this is a few months old but I wanted to add my experience. I conceived my son first try (I was gluten and dairy free at the time)
    However, I drank coffee, alcohol, sugar on occasion, although I was very limited.

    Now I am 2 yrs 1 month pp. I’ve been having a regular period for a year, I weaned 6 months ago and I haven’t conceived again. I thought for sure weaning would do the trick and it hasn’t.

    Just now finally getting back to gluten, dairy, and sugar free. Im going to do all the other AIP recommendations.

    It’s a seriously stressful situation but I pray every night the lord will bless us with a sibling for our son.

    Good luck to you both

    ❤️

    Reply
    • Anna

      May 31, 2017 at 3:15 pm

      Liz– Isn’t it amazing how the desire for a child- even a second child- can completely consume us? I know I wrote this post a few months ago, but I am just NOW weaning my son completely this week (he is just turning 2 now). Let’s stay committed to the diet together! And don’t forget the mind-body work! It is SO important, but its my greatest challenge . . . I find it is so hard to find the time to spend on MY health and well-being, when there is a toddler to care for. But, I have to. And you have to too!! Be well and fertile!! – Anna

      Reply
  5. Anne Sansonnetti

    January 18, 2018 at 11:36 am

    I just wanted to send you positive vibes and baby dust ?

    Reply
  6. Sarah

    June 18, 2019 at 12:02 pm

    I am 42 and have an 11 week old exclusive nursing baby. I am not on birth control and know that nursing can prevent pregnancy, however I am debating whether or not to take COq10 while nursing in the event I would become pregnant. I used it while trying to conceive my current baby due to my age and again now I’m not sure if I should take it while breastfeeding.

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    • Anna

      June 27, 2019 at 9:38 pm

      This is a great question! With my first I didnt take it until I stopped breastfeeding. With my second I started taking it when she was about 4 months old to help with fatigue. There are no studies, but CoQ10 is naturally occurring in our bodies and breastmilk. Safety is undetermined so you have to make your own decision!

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  7. Katie

    June 21, 2019 at 6:14 am

    Hi Anna. So much of your post resonates with me! I was just wondering if you knew if it was okay to take COQ10 while breastfeeding? My baby is now 14 months but I’m not sure when I will start to wean as I too enjoy the bond. I was wondering if COQ10 was something I might be able to start taking again but am not sure if there are any side effects for bub.

    Reply
    • Anna

      June 27, 2019 at 9:36 pm

      There are no tests to prove it is safe, but I personally take it while breastfeeding to help with the fatigue of mothering! CoQ10 is naturally occurring in our bodies and breast milk. You have to make your own decision!

      Reply
  8. Alexandra

    August 28, 2019 at 11:11 am

    Hi Anna,
    I have a 7 months old son that I’m breastfeeding and we would very much like to have more children. Like you, I used to have some difficulties to get pregnant and I lost two pregnancies before. Can you please share more of your experience with taking q 10 supplements while breastfeeding? Did it trigger any side effects for the baby? Thanks and look forward to your reply. Alexandra

    Reply
    • Anna

      August 29, 2019 at 11:27 am

      I started CoQ10 when my daughter was about 7 months and have had no ill side effects. Remember it isn’t approved for breastfeeding, but I am doing it anyway- mostly for energy!!

      Reply
  9. Gabriela

    October 17, 2019 at 7:43 pm

    Hi Anna, very nice story 🙂 congratulation! I would like to ask you please, so did u use Coenzym Q10 300mg while breastfeeding and it was okey for baby? Because I like to use it but I did not found anywhere Clear answer. Thank you best regards Gabi

    Reply
    • Anna

      October 28, 2019 at 10:50 am

      Hi Gabi!!

      So there isn’t any research on CoQ10 and breastfeeding, and I didn’t take it that first time until I weaned. However, I am currently nursing my daughter and yes I am taking CoQ10 while breastfeeding. I didn’t start until she was about 6 months old, and I don’t take the full 300mg. But I’m also not doing “all the things” to try to get pregnant again. And I strongly think that if you are going to do ALL THE THINGS to try to get pregnant, you should have stopped breastfeeding first. It is too much for your body otherwise!

      Good luck!

      Reply
  10. Zoe

    February 10, 2020 at 10:56 am

    What’s the brand of CoQ10 you recommend?

    Reply
  11. Alicia Wright

    March 12, 2020 at 9:20 pm

    Hi Anna,

    I stumbled upon this post recently as I’m currently nursing my miracle after recurrent loss and many many failed rounds of IVF with PGS and just had another early loss. I just have to know- did you conceive your second rainbow??? Feel free to email me because I don’t think I’ll see a response posted here. Thanks!

    Reply

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